My Song "Suicide"

 "Suicide"

There is a song of mine that I did that I am suddenly getting a lot of good feedback about. The song is called "Suicide" and I wrote and recorded it back in January of 2010. It was during this time that I actually recorded about 60 songs within a month's time as I poured my soul out. I was browsing through the instrumentals of one of my favorite producers (Exile Beats) on Soundclick and found this beat and turned off the lights and wrote and recorded Suicide in just minutes.

My wife tells me it is one of her LEAST favorite songs of mine because obviously it is a touchy subject as I have attempted suicide a few times in my life. Though I understand where she is coming from I actually think this is my favorite song I've done because it was one of those songs that I just said how I felt and didn't worry about any mistakes made in my delivery or slurred words. I talk about my suicide attempts and thoughts because if there are people out there who can relate to that then hopefully I am able to connect and keep them from breaking down.

I use a bit of Pink Floyd's song "Goodbye Cruel World" off the album "The Wall" in the chorus and basically tell you about my insecurities as a man and as a human being. I talk about the irrational thoughts that crowd my brain when I'm in those down moods (manic depression is really a bitch!) and as I've said I just started getting tons of feedback on it out of the blue. It is flattering to know that I can have that impact on somebody, as my heroes John Lennon and Hendrix and 2pac etc. have inspired me, I would like to inspire others.

Dealing with depression has really been a long hard fight but I am still standing tall with my fists up ready for more.

Joey Z

P.S. <<< This is what the alphabet would look like if the Q and R didn't exist...

oh but really P.S. click the "Suicide" link at the top to hear the song, in case you don't know already...